July Thoughts

Hey hey, how are you doing? Yes, I know. It has been a while, and I apologize for that. Lots of stuff going on. It’s weird, ya feel? I’m managing, barely. But it still counts. Or at least I hope it does.

I’m not going to go on about “woe is me, I’m alone and whatnot.” It’s been played to death at this point. Is it still there, certainly, I’m working on dealing with these feelings. It’s fine when school is in session, I’ve stuff to do and people to hang out with. Here, it’s just me.

Oh! I went home over the 4th of July weekend, nothing too big, just had a break from work and figured I’d go and see family. Real basic stuff. Dear lord, it was terrible. I know that sounds bad, trust me. I’m aware. Yes, my family is great and they love me and they want the best for me. But, I don’t know. My friends are a better family to me now. Look, I know that that sounds like I’m done with my family, but I’m not. I still deal with them. we’re close. But there’s this weird thing where I’m closer with friends than I could ever be with my family. And that’s on me, I know it is. But that’s the way it goes.

As for me, really I’m just counting down the days until school picks back up again and I can return to a semblance of normalcy. And I can get back to trying to see if there’s a chance with Alisha. You know how I’m real bad with figuring out if girls like me. My track record is quite poor. I don’t know man, there’s just something here I feel kinda good about. Could be here enthusiasm to constantly try to make plans to hang out work despite there being hangups in the way. So at the very least, there’s interest to get together and hang out. Which I can work with, that’s a start lol.

Anyway, I think that’s a pretty decent update on my life. I hope you’re doing well my faithful reader, and if you need anything. Reach out, I’ll try to be there for you as you’ve been there for me.

Love ya ❤

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