What up? Yeah, it’s me again. But you knew that already, I’m always in this state. Haha, here I am procrastinating instead of writing the paper that I should be working on. I’m just in a funk again, it comes and it goes. I don’t quite know what to do anymore. Well, that’s not true, I know exactly what to do, I just can’t do that.
I’m being surrounded by that all too familiar grasp of loneliness, it shows up every so often, and I can usually shake it. I’m just concerned that this one is more indicative of what’s to come in regards to me. I don’t know if I can keep this one up. I know I’ll get through it this time, I always have. But I don’t know how I’ll do against a constant barrage of this in the coming year.
I have my doubts of course. Am I ever going to overcome this in the long run? I certainly hope so, and I want to believe that I can. But come on, I know me. I know all the things I’ve tried and failed in my life. And I know that I will give my damnedest, so here’s to the future.
The future I’ve made for myself
The one that I’ve dreamt