Hey hey, it’s me. William. I’m back yet again, and man, what a time it is. School’s rumbling on and everything is falling apart in that most perfect way that I’m so extraordinarily familiar with. And god, how I hate it. How hard is it for something to go right for once? Like honestly, is that too much to ask. I mean, I know the answer to that is yes. But that’s besides the point, I’m living my life.
But not really, that’s a dream at this point in my life. Just me, myself, and I all by my lonesome, now and forever. Am I right? God, I hope I’m not, but hey, what’s new. Everything sucks, and I miss her. I see her in my dreams and everything is right with the world. She still loves me, and I never let her go. We made a life together, but that ship has long since sailed.
I’m not really sure where I’m going with this tonight, so I’m afraid that this one may be drawing to a close early. I wish I had more to say, but I just don’t. There’s nothing to say right now that I haven’t already said. I’m sad and alone, I wonder everyday if I’ve made the right choice, and in my heart I know that maybe I have. But what consolation is that? Exactly, it’s a sad pile of excuses, just like my sorry existence of a life.
So, if you’re reading this, I want you to know that I love you. I always have, and I will always be there for you in every trying step you’ve made in your life. From moving to Washington, to starting(and nearly finishing college), to leaving everything you’ve loved behind, I saw you do it all. And I want you to know, that I am so immensely proud of everything you’ve ever done in your life, and I hope that I’m half as strong as you are one day.
Thank you for being such a friend to me, and thank you for loving me, Chelsi. I miss you. ❤