Where do I start this time? Is it me? It’s got to be me, right? I think I just put too much emphasis on how I value my friendships, or any relationship for that matter.
Like I get so worked up when someone that I’ve told that I’m always there for them if they need me goes to someone else to vent to about it. And I know it’s dumb and that I shouldn’t, but I still find myself doing that sometimes. I’m working on it, I really am, but there’s always that tiny cast of doubt that I have that they don’t think I’m enough of a friend sometimes.
It’s a really bad inferiority complex, and I’ve been trying to improve it. I’ve made some headway, and I don’t get as worked up as I used to, and I take that as the biggest success.
I just don’t know man, what if I’m not good enough. It’s something I’m constantly dealing with, and I hate it. Why can’t I find the strength in me to see that I’ve got this. And that it’s all going to be alright. I want to help people see that there’s a tomorrow, so why can’t I start with me?
Bison Musings 